People around me are like counting down to the day for me. Many would ask, “How many months?” and then they go, “Eh next month coming out!” Hahaha. Frankly I really feel like I am not fully prepared. I havent really decided on an official date to start maternity leave and am only starting to prepare the stuff needed for Term 4 when I am not going to be in school.
Hospital bag packed? Nope. Haiyo!
But honestly, being 34 weeks pregnant has made me extra emotional recently. For instance, I was peeved when my husband mentioned that he’ll be working on Friday, Saturday and Monday during the long weekend. I think I just kept quiet after he told me that and he realised it almost immediately.
“Okay sayang. Come let’s talk. Out of the 4 days, which days do you want me not to work? I will plan according to you k?” he said.
I think right after that I came to my senses and looked at this man who was willing to make changes to his schedule to accommodate my wants (and my feelings). After that I thought to myself, why was I upset about him working? It wasnt as if he was going out gallivanting with his friends. It wasnt as if he was going to work for the whole 4 days straight. If we were to go out during that long weekend, it’s going to be crowded everywhere and with my condition right now, crowded places and a lot of walking is not a good combination 😡
So I touched both his cheeks (like cerita Hindustan eh) and told him, “It’s okay you can go to work on the planned days. I stay home with baby,” and touched my tummy, hahaha.
I am still learning not to take things for granted since of late, I’ve heard of other people’s other halves passing on and they are still grieving and are in the healing process. Here I am, with my husband in front of me and I am feeling upset over small, trivial matters.
In Shaa Allah these are all due to pregnancy hormones. I hope I’ll be a more composed hunan being after I become a mother.
Anyway, emo things aside, last night I went on a shopping spree, dressed in my pajamas with both swollen feet propped up on two pillows. No place other than Carousell!
Considering that I have not spent on any of baby’s clothing and are hoping for more to come from my aunt and my colleague (#mamaonabudget), $150 not bad right? Deliver at the doorstep lagi. However I have a feeling my mother will go…
…”But kakak, bathtub, pillow and mattress cover all you havent buy!”
That will be on another day? Heheh.